Last week was a challenging one for me. Well, most weeks are challenging these days. They are a constant battle between time flying by; never enough minutes in a day, and time dragging so slowly that bedtime can’t come quickly enough. I know so many of you other moms have been there.
But last week, in particular, I had some little sickies. My 2.5 year old is already a bit over dramatic about…life, so when she’s sick…boy, let me tell you…
She was a beast. Nothing could go her way. She was too tired to function, but having difficulty sleeping with congestion. Tantrums on the floor for little to no reason became my norm for a few days, and my poor 5 year old (also sick by the way), took more hits, bites, and kicks from her than I could count, God bless his patience.
By the third day of this, I was losing patience quickly, and every muscle in my body ached. My back felt so tight, it hurt to breathe. I needed my own mommy melt down, but I didn’t have the time. Every time I even went to the bathroom, Charlotte was banging on the door. One particularly quiet moment, I sneaked off to my room to stretch my back and catch my breath. I didn’t touch any lights. I didn’t close the door all the way, so as not to arouse suspicion of my whereabouts, but I was temporarily out of sight.
thump thump thump
Mommy? Mommy?
Charlotte found me. In the midst of her quiet, happy moment, watching her favorite show, she left and found me. She always finds me. In the bathroom, in the shower, in the bedroom; lights out…she seeks me, and she finds me.
God is not hiding in His bedroom. He is not hiding behind a locked bathroom door, pulling His hair out. God is there for the finding! What if we sought Him like children? What if we looked for Him in everything we did, whether it was to cry, or to tell a very long winded, repetitive story, no one else finds the least bit entertaining. What if we sought after God with the diligent determination of a child looking for their mother, in the bathroom?
I want to try that this week. I want to be that child that says, “God? Hey, God?? Let me tell you all about my day. I promise to not leave a single thing out!”